Lord pls help

I want to know if this way is a fruitful way and meaningful way Lord pls let me have faith.  i want to trust Lord but i do not know how Lord guides us vividly.

Pls help Fun to have faith on U. I do not know why she is so concerned with her wealth, but let her trust that You can provide and never let us down since we are Your children.

Am i too foolish that gave up my job?  i trust that You won’t let me down.  pls let me can be your testimonial so that people know can see how fruitful and faithful You are.

I wanna get up at 6am every morning so that i can be close to You.

其實仍然驚

我驚我是真的太傻，付出一切卻得不到主的喜悅。求主堅固自己。

像訂婚的人，決定了卻不能立刻結婚，反而有點害怕，不知會否衝動、魯莽。

我不刺激，不求富貴，只求那份屬天又真實的心靈喜樂，生活能如光。

The last piano lesson

Teacher said i was playing well the hymns.  i think it is because i need practice.  i need 2 hours practice everyday to improve the techniques.

Jonathan is my concern.  we the serving sister camchoose to share and eat at dinner. 

Another th

主的安排

若不是哥哥信了主，和我信了主，妹妹不會信主。若不是我們三兄妹信主，媽媽不會信主。若不是婆婆信主，或許媽媽的信心不會那麼堅定，她也不會如此支持我去宣教。

主知道我的軟弱，又讓我要受一點試煉，讓爸爸未信主，好讓我能更仔細思想是否要走宣教這條路。

主就是在我還未出母腹前，已命定我要在香港出生，然後讀書信主，然後畢業時遇上金融風暴，好讓媽媽信主，然後又讓我能踏出這一步。

每一步都是恩典！

Want to ignore everything

Is it because i don’t have vision?  i have the target to go ahead?

I thought i love piano, but i don’t think i have the ability and confidence to handle it well like my current job. I thought i love bible, but i seldom read bible.

Is it because God want me to know all happens are not from myself but just Him?

I do think i don’t have enough passion and ability to serve Him, but i want to see if i can experience His power on me.

Reality is cruel.  once i and panda give up our jobs, we really don’t know if we can find another even as good as before.  all we can do is to see how God leads us.

今天好多了

要好好照顧身體，學習愛惜自己，不要只靠醫生了。

今天有點不捨的感覺。很真的道理，就是當失去了才懂得珍惜，盼望主不讓自己後悔所選擇的。

仍然薄臉皮。如何能放膽見證主，如使徒、又如韋華先生、又如東哥般一樣勇敢？下星期三的聖誕聯歡會，求主幫助！

How can i love you more my Lord?

I am eager to serve Lord, but i am not thirsty on His word.  How come?  Lord pls help me.

I am distributing the prayer letters today, but i find i cannot share deeply to everyone i want to keep in touch.  i evendo not pray for others often.

My neck was hurt and painful.  wish i can be healed soon and not to be hurt again next year.

感恩主賜友誼

今天同兩位好姊妹食飯，很開心，她們都是我心上的人，是因主耶穌而得真友誼，比童年所建立的友誼更真摰，是主耶穌所賜的。

晚上同小鈺傾訴關於分手的事，其實沒有信心可安慰到她，唯有交比神，求主親自安慰。感恩主聽禱告，因為我們得的結論是相信凡在自己身上發生的都是主許可的，並祂會安排最好的。最後竟沒有流淚，充滿著喜樂地禱告及歸家。神的作為真奇妙！

最近迷上了打機，於是立志就是每逢想打機就要停下一回去讀經，免得荒廢。主又提醒要保守自己作完全人。

I finish the prayer letter

Thank God since i revisited many memory with God and i cannot stop my tears running out.  tonight i am so relax to enjoy playing piano and just play.

I also admitted that i have too less faith, but God always works not lazy.  Alex came to cell goup yesterday and i was so surprised .  i almosr gave up since i thought he wanted to escape us.  i don’t know what he thinks but i thanks God to gather us to share Jesus together.

I am doubted that why Heidi always works such late night.  i don’t understand her field but i would really pray her to have balance work life.

被提醒

今天終於睇完關於差傳奉獻的文章後，明白了很多 神的工作，亦覺得自己距離倚靠近神還有很大的距離。求主幫助。

Om其中一個宗旨係要重整敬拜和禱告的生命。我十分認同，福音派似乎著重認罪悔改，但太甚時變得有點律法主義。如何能天天生活都流露著敬拜和傳福音的生命，真正活出主所愛大使命的門徒人生？

求主幫助自己克服遲到的壞習慣，建立倚靠耶和華以勒和渴慕神話語的心。

Just dont want to do

Or i need fun and play more?  i want joyous life not just tasking.  how should i adjust?

Lord pls help me to depend on you and your power instead of my own control.  i need your help to give me strength.

Pls let me be strong in you.

掛念

今天忽然覺得很掛念團友，很想擁抱他們，雖然不是促膝詳談，但因主耶穌我們能相聚在一起，是多麼的美！

越來越近要出發的日子，卻依靠主的心比以前減少，身體又差了。是撒旦的攻擊嗎?求主幫助。

晚上跟kathy晚飯，很久沒有這樣在一起逛逛，可能之後更少機會。感恩主讓我有這樣愛我的姊妹，說真的，我有點不捨得她。

跟carmen談不知明年的團契將會如何，但相信改變是在神的掌管之下，對團契必有益處。願主彰顯祂的作為！

Get to sleep quickly

As i need to restore my energy asap. 

These two days i watched youtube to learn some skills of playing chords.  i feel excited and i truly want to play piano more fluently.  i think perhaps i don’t have the gift to play classical music, but i want to enjoy music firstly.

Because music is a present from God.  it brings us joy and peace and add colors to our life.

Everybody is working busily in hk.  how can we escape it and enjoy life and fellowship again like our child time?

忙到爆左

快頂唔順！

要寫代禱信，但又想訓多d覺。

Carmen結婚希望搞得好好睇睇啦，最緊要見證 神，同埋我第一次做統籌咁大。

由朝做到晚不停好似做左打字機器咁...

Eat out with mum

Seldom eat out with mum.  We didn’t talk much since we are not talkative women.  i am tired of her grumbling why i still do not have a boyfriend, but i know mum now learns to be patient and listen.  Thanks God.

I told her perhaps Wilson is a good man and can be considered, so i promise mum to pray more.  yes i should admit that i do not often pray for love affairs.  perhaps i am tired of outside pressure so i even want to ignore it and let it come easy.  now i should repent and pray to see how God reply my prayer.

One thing comes up my mind recently.  missionary actually is a kind of living.  dont take heavily serious mind on it otherwise we cannot live out the happiness and joyful spiritual life in reality.  can i experience missionary life with light burden and easy way like JESUS?

有透不過氣的感覺

但我想到主耶穌既冇佳形美容，亦不辭勞苦地服事人，那麼我們跟隨祂的，就當學習祂的溫柔謙卑。因為祂的擔是容易的，祂的軛是輕省的。

這讓我想到聖經評論摩西比眾人更謙和，當他面對可拉等輩的民叛變時，他仍俯伏謙卑在眾人面前，從不自怨自艾。

當 神發烈怒要滅以色列人時，摩西總在神面前懇求。

當摩西實在抱怨帶領這民的責任太重，他只在神面前求，重新得力。

這是否因摩西從尊貴顯赫的王子身份，而後去沙漠流浪牧羊，所鍛鍊出來的堅忍性格呢？

我辭職令我不能進入管理層，但神是否要磨練我呢？求主讓我相信主的安排是最好的。

Feel sick but keep going

I am glad that my colleagues love me so much, like Connie is good to encourage me and let me choose my way although i know it is risky if i don’t choose to stay at Maidenform.  i know economic environment is going to be worse ans worse, but i want to learn to put faith on my Lord instead of others.  In Him is like in a shelter.

I also miss my team and my companion Annie.  i never felt such missing when i left previous company.  Lord let me know it is no regret for me.

It is not a long journey and it is also not a short journey.  a little withdrawal will bring so much inconvenience and caring from family and friends, then how much more if i become a missionary?

I get to hurry up to finish prayer letter asap otherwise it is difficult to raise fund from brothers and sisters by end dec.  May God make it happen.

煩、忙、病

今天病假，但仍很忙！難道香港人就是不能擺脫”忙”這個厄運嗎？

感恩今天能休息，本想去找Vicky食Lunch,反正飯是要食的，但不想一出街又Shopping又休息唔到，所以都係返屋企休息。

但返屋企冇停過上網，處理各樣瑣碎事，科技發達的年代使人足不出戶就能解決很多事情如付賬，電郵，交稅等，但令在家休息的自己卻仍覺得很忙碌。

最後迫自己放下所有事要午睡個半鐘。

晚上去Om了解出發前籌務經費的事，聽後也不知應怎樣做，感恩有位去南非的弟兄已出了他的代禱信，我可參考一下。

月禱會碰見一位姊妹，像是甄詠珠姑娘，不知有否認錯，但我對她有種情意結，因她曾對我說過我的名字很特別，希望我能散發出美”麗“馨“香”的事奉。